Mourning & Modern Knowledge – CJ Delous

Permutations of motion though matter;

the ecstatic union of void & fire;

    mutation arrayed 

        in differential display:


    is this

use of language the only way 

    for the feeling to fade

        & finally escape

            from my bones?


Can’t I ever 

go beyond what’s here 

in front of me 

& reach the place 

        I want to be?




Escaping the maze 

is not an option,

so I remain trapped

    in oxymoronic structure;

the point 

where concept concedes to content;

    when precision

        & all measurement

            reach their limitation, 

but grammar still remains needed

for practical reasons.


Without language there is 

no way to express

this sense 

of frustration & unease 

        echoing through me, 

as I witness

    unbounded expansions 

ripple & sway

when thrown stones 

disturb the surface of a lake, 


    in brief undulations,

        & sink


until they can be seen

no longer:


Nothing ever

disappears completely   

     or so they say…

but you’re too far away 

for me to care.


Even if absences

    linger within

        every presence,

there’s nothing comforting

in that knowledge:


What remains of the lost

    is not enough.



I’m (relatively) new and currently unpublished poet living in the UK. I write anonymously so there is no need for ‘the death of the author’ and my poems are more open to interpretation, without any implied gender or sexual orientation or any other authorial imprint that does not come from the words themselves.
I write under the name CJ Delous.

My work can be found at

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